:D
now i know why i was emo-ing so much, though technically i shouldnt blame it on the m and should blame myself instead, haha.
THERE'S ONLY 4 DAYS TO THE BIG M.
okay, that was stupid. and i guess it was aggravated from the fact that i had one whole day to emo to myself.
enough excuses ning. though i was still emoing this morning, and i think it was one of my worst. :/ GAH sorry minjia! you had to endure my emoing throughout almost the whole math lesson. and stupid NPT just had to come over to talk to me. HELLO I'M EMOING DANGER! BEWARE! KEEP OUT! i'm telling you he has no common sense. -.-
okay enough about that stupid emoing thing. x\ thanks to everyone who cared :) SARANGHAEYO!
anyway, tomorrow is
PHYSICAL FITNESS TEST.
aka 2.4 km run.
aka DEATH TIME.
tomorrow is going to be the day whereby jianing will just die halfway during her run. D: gosh i cant even run ONE round without panting!
oh, and wait till next monday comes and it's time for the 5 items. i will just die for standing broad jump! as usual, seeing how my legs are so short and fat. and i cant sit and reach for nuts, i wish they could let us sit cross-legged and reach! and for shuttle run, why cant we just run one straight line! i hate having to bend down cos it slows me down! eeeee. and i have no arm muscles nor stomach muscles to speak of, so my IPU and sit-ups are all goners.
GAHHHHHHHHH.
alrights. time for bed! :D nights yall. happy mugging/studying/homeworking. i havent done any of that, as usual. maybe tomorrow. today's just been too tiring.
i felt so insignificant. but it's alright, other people have more interesting personalities than i. just that walking back to class alone was... saddening. made me feel unwanted. same for recess. maybe it's because i've been giving in too much. always pulling extra people along because i know i would be a bore to whoever was with me. trying to hype things up, but after things get hyped up i end up being the sad one because no one cares and everyone dismisses me as crappy and stupid. but i'll be fine in time, i think.
flew @9:25 PM
April 16, 2007
