hohoho. i was randomly looking for famous people who shared the same birthday as me, then i came across kasuno-kun! hohoho he's super funny! hehehe and duh he shares the same birthday as me! xD hahaha.
watch this video: CLICK! katsuno is super cute in there! HAHAHA. he's the first one that they wake up. omg he sleeps in a SHELF when he has a proper bed! hahahahahaah omg super funny! x3
hohoho i like kayoma too! and i realised that yamapi is the one that i always see in jap dramas.
and it seems like i have alot of fate with this group. aso-chan from one litre of tears is also from this band! 8D his real name is ryo. hahaha omg lovelove!
hoho yes i'm back to my fangirling self. but i need to buck up for studies already! ><
no time to download already, i'm currently downloading the first part liao!
kae time to sleep already. toodles!
flew @11:35 PM April 29, 2007
遇见
听见冬天的离开 我在某年某月醒过来 我想我等我期待 未来却不能理智安排
阴天傍晚车窗外 未来有一个人在等待 向左向右向前看 爱要拐几个弯才来
我遇见谁会有怎样的对白 我等的人他在多远的未来 我听见风来自地铁和人海 我排著队拿著爱的号码牌
我往前飞飞过一片时间海 我们也常在爱情里受伤害 我看著路梦的入口有点窄 我遇见你是最美丽的意外
终有一天我的谜底会揭开
ah this is such an old song but i like it so much! was randomly humming songs in my head then suddenly this song came up! x3 i was so happy that imeem.com has it! hahaha lol.
flew @3:50 PM April 28, 2007
fracture!
went to watch movie with sunchao yesterday. COUGH i waited for... ONE HOUR LEH! then it started raining coughcoughcough. so when we could have initially avoided the rain we were caught in the rain! hahaha but neverminds. i'm nice :D hehehe.
watched fracture! it's a good movie. :) i rate: ****! last star is absent cos we both felt that the plot generally was quite guessable. haha. but it was good! :D hehe luckily we didnt go watch the last mimzy x3
after that we went to buy my shoes! yay i like my new shoes :D they were ex, though x( money just flew away! but i like them alot alot, yay.
slept rather early yesterday, and woke up at 12.30 >< initially i woke up at 6 plus, cos i was cold (my blanky fell onto the floor) but i was too numbed to pick it up. then i woke up at 9.30 again to pick up my blanky (it was too cold) then i woke up at 11.30 but decided to sleep just a bit more and in the end i woke up at 12.30. hahaha.
summer cleaning my room now! hohoho byebye -waves.
flew @3:07 PM
bad day :(
today was a pretty bad day. sigh. got back all three science papers, GAH. it was terrible. terrible terrible terrible. i'm probably the worst student in the whole of RGS! D: really.
haiyah shant talk about it.
anyway yearmates were so sweet. :) cos i finally broke down in the room, then they comforted me and meiling gave me chocolate too! after that went out with yile rong meiling shopping! xD haha i felt much better with company around. if i had just gone home without any distractions previously i think i would have just broke down in front of my dad, feeling guilty. ><
of course, i still feel guilty towards him, but i think i'll only tell him next year. hehehe if it's possible. maybe i'll just tell him the chem marks. cos he's seeing mrs toh! EEEK. meanwhile, i'd better jiayou for my SPAs so that i can pull up my marks! x(
anyway, yes shopping. went to lucky plaza first, hoho. there got alot of cheap clothes, but not really very nice. x) yile and i were saying that if the two of them hadn't wanted to step in here, we'd never have entered lucky plaza, or at least enter it for such a long time. xD hahaha. usually i just go to the macdonalds there :3
after that we decided to go to this fashion at dhoby. ahhhhh i saw something nice but i couldnt buy it! D: dang. i dont care june holidays i shall go find it! xD if fate allows it should still be there by then..
anyway i went home all chirpy and happy. i thank God for these people, really.
love.
The Bottom Line No one else is going to put your needs first if you don't. Be self-reliant.
In Detail Nothing in life is a sure thing -- especially right now, when someone you were counting on is much more interested in moving toward a personal goal than in fulfilling an obligation to you. Instead of worrying that you did something wrong, stand up for yourself. It's time to downgrade this person to a lower status in your life. After all, if he or she never thinks of you first, then you're going to have to do so!
see! even friendster horoscope is telling me to be self-reliant. eh the "in detail" part i dont understand though. hahaha. but i definitely need to be self-reliant if i want to do well in my other tests from now on! x( it's already my last year in rgs, so i'd better make it a success!
flew @8:29 PM April 26, 2007
BIG BANG! version 2.
hahaha new skin! it's black this time, i realised i havent been using black for a long time x)
hmmm i still kinda prefer the last one. i dunno, see the comments i get first! hahaha.
flew @11:55 PM April 25, 2007
i have done 19 out of 35 stupid things before.
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking. [ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking. [ ]You have ran into a glass/ screen door. [x]You have jumped out of a moving vehicle. [x]You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.
So far : 3
[ ] When you were snowboarding u have ran into a tree/ bush/ PEOPLE. [ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow. [-.-] You JUST tried to lick your elbow. [ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm. [ ] You just tried to sing them
So far : 4
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen. [x] You have choked on your own spit. [x] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it. [ ]Your hair is naturally blonde [x] People have called you slow
So far : 8
[ ] You have accidentally/ purposely caught something on fire [ ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/ eyes. [x] You have caught yourself drooling. [x] You've fallen asleep in class.
So far : 10
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking. [x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about [x] People are often shaking their heads and walking away from you [ ]You are often told to use your "inside voice". [ ]You use your fingers to do simple math.
So far : 13
[ ] You have eaten a bug [x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important [x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it [x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was right by you. [ ] You've woken up in someone else's house and freaked out because you didn't remember where you are.
So far : 16
[ ] You've reposted bulletins because you were scared that what they say would happen to you if you didn't. [ ] You break a lot of things.
So far : 16
[x] Your friends know not to use big words around you [x] You tilt your head or make a weird face when you're confused [x] You have fallen out of your chair before
So far : 19
[ ] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling (nah i'm too blind to see anything xD) [ ] The word "umm" is used many times a day. (i go ehhh so it's not counted :D)
So far : 19
HAHA NOT BAD IMMA 19! lol this is so embarrassing. :3
flew @10:24 PM April 24, 2007
all of the sudden, it feels like as if the world loves me so so so much.
thank God for these people. :)
HAHAHA, anyways, after that mushy bit, i am proud to announce that I DIDNT DIE FOR PFT! WHOOHOO i am so contented with a pass, tsk! hahaha. but who cares! :D i dont! hehehehehe yayy!
today was a fun and high day. :D though sometimes i was really, really dumb. but i dont care! i'm happy and that's that.
HOHO TRIPSCI PAPERS ARE GOING TO BE RETURNED ON THURSDAY AND I'M WORRIED. i wont be surprised if i fail all three. eeek! ><
ning, HWAITING!
i miss being nice ning.
flew @6:59 PM April 23, 2007
:D
I'M VERY HAPPY TODAY!
but i havent done any homework.
geez!
overdue homework that's still undone: - math assignment 1 (okay this is history. due 3 weeks ago or so!) - chinese jianbao (heh) - chem prac wkst (i didnt bother eek!) - ss fa (oops i better get it done or i'll die for eoy mya! [what a stupid name]) - physics wkst (HOHO marked in schl alr i took down the ans!)
hoho and current homework: - 4 math assignments (of course not due so soon lah) - some weird bio thingy - physics wkst
hehe. and guess what? yup, i dont think i'll be doing any of it tonight. maybe only chinese, cos laoshi's very nice and she keeps on saying she'll book us. :/
BUT, I'M STILL VERY HAPPY TODAY :D
flew @10:10 PM April 22, 2007
c",)
today was a happy day! :D i enjoyed the whole day today, well at least till i was on my way home and noticed something irritating. x( okay i shall elaborate later. ^^
went to school in the morning for RS. at first it was quite sian, but after that we got high! and it was fun doing voice over, hahaha. and we didnt exceed 100 takes for the voice overs! YAAAAAY to us! hahahaha xD though the first scene itself took 32 tries already! hahaha. it was still fun, hehehe. we did all the way till 2pm! didnt get to watch the fashion show cos it was already so late :(
after that went for kfc for lunch. i hate kfc! i dunno why, i just dont like it.(especially the far east branch eek!) it's yucky >< ate the new thingy that they're selling, and hoho i didnt like it, as expected. ah wells. then went around shoping with shusi to while away time before her tuition, haha. we walked till our legs suan like mad! can die! haha. but on the way home something super irritating happened. ugh. i cant believe how heartless and inconsiderate singaporeans are. when i was on the mrt there was this really old uncle who was grabbing on to the hanging handrail thing of the mrt with both hands, looking unbalanced, yet no one offered their seats for him! UGH. and he's really old okay. worse, when he finally got himself a seat (he slowly walked there), there was an even older auntie who got onto the mrt. guess what happened? right! no one gave up their seats for the old auntie. the old auntie was even older than the old uncle. so guess what happened again? right! the old uncle gave up HIS seat so that the older auntie could sit! SO NICE RIGHT. AND THE PEOPLE NEXT TO HIM WERE JUST STARING GUILTILY. no use looking guilty but not helping alrights! then he went back to grabbing the handrails tightly with both his hands. :( he grabbed it like as if he would fall if he didnt grab tight enough, and it made me mad just thinking of the people next to him not giving up their seats for him. ugh those singaporeans are so selfish and mean! :( i hope it wont be the case when i grow up! UGHHH.
HOHO presentinggg...
THE WATERMELON STORY! (the watermelon was really sweet, by the way.)
q-watermelon (quarter-melon) was leading a happy and peaceful life.
when... SOMEONE DECIDED TO EAT IT!
but it was too big!
so, q-watermelon was horribly,
chopped into two.
no more q-watermelon.
YAY that was fun :D innovative eh? HAHAHA xD and doesnt the last pic look bloody!
hahaha. xp
your own source of happiness comes from yourself. :)
flew @7:55 PM April 21, 2007
:)
have been cheering up recently, cos there's a saying that goes like
RAINBOWS APPEAR AFTER A GLOOMY SKY.
or some rubbish like that. hahaha. sorry la my memory cannot make it! i should go drink essence of chicken. havent tasted it in my entire life before though. must be disgusting since my parents never ever fed me that before. haha.
math test was screwed. kok and i were super happy that we passed though, cos NoPT said that there were 4 failures so we were super scared that we would fail! x( haha and as i forecasted, i got my first question and last question totally wrong! :/ ah wells. probability that jianing will never understand probability ever=1. okays then better study harder for trigo! which reminds me, my transformation wkst is blank ._. GAHH! it's a wonder i actually survived RGS for 3 years, seeing that i always scraped a 2.8 GPA and hovered around there, never ever improving much. so much so, grades have become non-important to me already.
but my daddy thinks that i'm a smart and hardworking girl in school. THAT'S THE PROBLEM! cos i'm certainly not! D: he's discovered my weakness for chem and physics already, and if he hears of my math test results i think he'll faint. :/ ah wells, better keep it from him then!
have been spending alot of time with my daddy recently. i dunno why. i guess i'm just afraid. aren't you?
it's words like these that hurt. sometimes i dunno if i still belong. somehow i still feel that pain. but it's okay, i'm learning to cope.
flew @9:00 PM April 19, 2007
:D
now i know why i was emo-ing so much, though technically i shouldnt blame it on the m and should blame myself instead, haha.
THERE'S ONLY 4 DAYS TO THE BIG M.
okay, that was stupid. and i guess it was aggravated from the fact that i had one whole day to emo to myself.
enough excuses ning. though i was still emoing this morning, and i think it was one of my worst. :/ GAH sorry minjia! you had to endure my emoing throughout almost the whole math lesson. and stupid NPT just had to come over to talk to me. HELLO I'M EMOING DANGER! BEWARE! KEEP OUT! i'm telling you he has no common sense. -.-
okay enough about that stupid emoing thing. x\ thanks to everyone who cared :) SARANGHAEYO!
anyway, tomorrow is
PHYSICAL FITNESS TEST.
aka 2.4 km run.
aka DEATH TIME.
tomorrow is going to be the day whereby jianing will just die halfway during her run. D: gosh i cant even run ONE round without panting!
oh, and wait till next monday comes and it's time for the 5 items. i will just die for standing broad jump! as usual, seeing how my legs are so short and fat. and i cant sit and reach for nuts, i wish they could let us sit cross-legged and reach! and for shuttle run, why cant we just run one straight line! i hate having to bend down cos it slows me down! eeeee. and i have no arm muscles nor stomach muscles to speak of, so my IPU and sit-ups are all goners.
GAHHHHHHHHH.
alrights. time for bed! :D nights yall. happy mugging/studying/homeworking. i havent done any of that, as usual. maybe tomorrow. today's just been too tiring. i felt so insignificant. but it's alright, other people have more interesting personalities than i. just that walking back to class alone was... saddening. made me feel unwanted. same for recess. maybe it's because i've been giving in too much. always pulling extra people along because i know i would be a bore to whoever was with me. trying to hype things up, but after things get hyped up i end up being the sad one because no one cares and everyone dismisses me as crappy and stupid. but i'll be fine in time, i think.
flew @9:25 PM April 16, 2007
beware. emo-ing in progress.
sigh why does everyone seem to be leading such happy lives. i dunno, i think i'm just pms-ing. rong seemed to have a fun week. hmm let me review my week too.
i'm fake, admit it. i put up a front all the time, i know it. i try to smile, knowing i cant and shouldnt, i say things when i dont mean them, and i attempt to be a happy girl that everyone knows.
i never do things right. i make people upset. i make people disappointed. i make people angry. and all this frustrates me. why cant i just do things right? i cant even study right. i flunk my studies, and i flunk in life. where's the discipline? i guess that's just a front that's put up as well. just a fake "discipline". looks oh-so-mighty eh? looks oh-so-strong.
ugh i'm even starting to doubt our friendship. will it really last? is it really forever? i really want it to last. but by then, will i just be the forgotten one? cos you keep saying 'dont tell you' like everything shouldnt be my business. but didnt we promise that we'll tell each other everything? maybe you were just kidding, but i feel so out of place. okay, so i'm not always high, i dont always talk much. and i talk crap that no one understands. probably only you know that i'm capable of saying nothing but crap. probably only you can put up with it. but everyone has their limits, and i guess your limit is reaching already.
i hate myself for thinking this way, but i cant stop myself either.
double-faced asshole. i hate you.
but at least i still have Him. Lord help me change! i dont want to live my life this way, feeling so upset and my heart feels so heavy all the time. i dont want.
flew @9:13 PM April 14, 2007
RG Guides AA 07
AA was great! :D hahaha they were all super high, then we were just watching them, all amused. ^^ it's my third time attending AA already, so i guess it was not too different, just that this time, we were watching people from our batch do their thing! so it was really fun. haha and as i was told yearmates, that they love to bomb each other, i was right! while we were just entering, we could hear the bombings already. hahaha. it was funny :D hehe. the performances were nice, and the plot/story was really cute! hahahaha the gingerbread man going around to get a wifey! xD or at least i think it was something like that. heh. was quite hard to catch the story with all the distractions like games and screamings and performances :) hurhur well done yearmates! it was scary but fun i guess. xD i kept banging into chelsea though. eeks! i was shaking before AND after we performed! somehow it was even scarier than talentime, i wonder why. :/ maybe cos we havent been practicing much, and somemore this time got so many people i know watching. yikes.
i'm really sorry and i really didnt mean it! ugh. i hope you know it hurts cos you mean alot to me :( GAH.i think i'm overly sensitive. no, not about this. i AM very sensitive in nature. i just dont like to show it, that's all. i hate being weak.
flew @12:08 AM
fulllllllll.
The Bottom Line
You can't look to anyone else for the discipline you need. Do the right thing.
In Detail
They say that children need discipline in order to be happy and healthy -- and grownups need rules in their lives, too! You won't be able to look to anyone else for the guidelines or the positive reinforcement you're looking for right now -- you will have to give yourself the discipline you need. You know what the right choice is, so force yourself to make it. If you let yourself off the hook this time, you will probably regret it (or at least feel guilty for a long time).
zomgg this sounds so much like my daddy it's freaky! O.O
anyway first aspen lesson today. it's okay la. not bad, i guess. and i was feeling so tired and lifeless the whole day i didnt feel like going to school! GAH. but i still did, haha. i feel stupid x) WHAT AM I TYPING MAN.
hohoho merry christmas. i ate sushi for dinner and i had durian after that :D
omg imma fatty! GAH. :/ everyone tells me that D:
flew @7:53 PM April 9, 2007
hahaha night out with my family today. at first i was feeling really sian and felt like the whole world was against me cos the day didnt go well AT ALL. and my dad was being stupid and irritating, as always. he seems to think that being with us does not make him happy. let me tell you, it's that mentality of his that's taking us further apart from each other. UGH. okay enough of it i'm supposed to be happy in this post anyway. x)
so after some coffeeshop dinner we went to macdonalds! XD my aunt wanted to treat us to icecream, hahaha so my bro and i got a sundae each while my cousins ordered mcflurries. then after that we got bored so we walked around macs and took photos with our dear boyfriends, ronald and macdonald. xD
then we went to the park! i was scared of seeing APU******S and siying was scared of seeing ghosts. xD but with the 3 musketeers leading us we were less scared la. then we started to play on the swings! XD cos there were the 5 of us and there were 6 swings. but 2 were baby swings. so initially siying didnt get to play, then after a while i let her. then i was watching them play, AND IT WAS HILARIOUS! XD HAHAHA. cos you must take into account the size of my bro and my cousin! HAHAHA then it was super funny. my cousin went to sit on the baby swing! then his whole body was straight and motionless except for his legs and his mouth and he was going "AHH my ass hurts! AHHH!" xD HAHAHA. which should be quite true la. HAHA.
played alot at the playground and i felt really really happy :)
i'm glad i have such great relatives :D and it would really do better if my paternal side was as good as them :/ i feel so distant from my paternal side, sometimes even my dad. ><
i dont know.. it's just hard to communicate with him now, cos there are so many things that i cant tell him, cos it'd just make him mad. like i cant even complain. if i go things like "gahhhhh i got a sunburn today :((((" he'll just start nagging about how i should put sunblock and take care of my own skin and all that rubbish. AHHHHH. mooooohoohoo. haiyah. at least i still had a happy day! :D
haii. just that we didnt get to do our GOH! D: pracced so hard all for nothing. sigh. GOT ALL SUNBURNT ALL FOR NOTHING! D:
but tomorrow it's church with rong! YAAAY! :DDDDD
i dont care anymore. not about you, not about what you say, not about anything at all. you hurt me real deep, know that.
flew @10:37 PM April 7, 2007
8)
hoho i'm super energetic now! cos i slept for 14 hours yesterday! hahaha.
it was stupid, i tell you. i was planning to nap for a while in front of my computer, then i fell asleep instead. luckily i didnt drool, if not my ss pt would be gone. HAHA kidding la. xD anyway i did a new copy of the cartoon cos it was ugly anyway. ahahha. anyway, the windows were open, then my daddy came in, then he was like "why are you sleeping here! go and sleep on the bed, shoo!" then i dragged myself to my bed and he helped me close two windows (i have three, btw.) then i was groggily pointing to the last window and said "still got one moreeee" but apparently he didnt hear. then i had to close it myself before going to sleep. while i was sleeping i was even thinking of my destroyed timetable for today. SIGH.
hahaha so i woke up at 9am today! what a good girl right. :D (if you want to know what time i slept go do your maths haha) finished my ss pt and my daddy understands it! :D he was praising me oh thankyou thankyou. now i can only hope ms lim thinks the same way too! eeeks.
anyway must thank minjia for helping me submit tmr! :D
and GOH for WRCD is tomorrow! GAH. whole day's goneeeeeee. i want to go out! D: hopefully sunchao still wants to go out at 4.30. hehe. but i'll be stinky and i'll be carrying a whole load of stuff. :/ GAH. i dunno lah. BWAHHHH.
hohoho i shall go watch BAD FAMILY. hahahaha.
flew @11:41 PM April 6, 2007
.
“说了一个谎言， 你就必须说更多谎言遮住第一个谎言， 这个道理， 难道没有人跟你说过吗？”
有。
but i cant help it! i mean, all these white lies. i dont know, i guess i just need that bit of privacy. :/ trust me, i'll tell you the truth one day. <3
HOHO nicole and i have decided to be hardworking from now on! YAAY to becoming hardworking! ^^ i need to pull up my socks, seriously. :/ if they go any lower i'll get booked and get a straight BETA. of course, not literally.
oh, and by the way, the quote was from corner*with love :D it's not exact, but it's along those lines. haha it's a nice show! :)
flew @6:07 PM April 5, 2007
i'm feeling the love :D
it's people like you who make me smile all day long. like there's absolutely no reason for me to smile, no reason to me to be high, but here i am, smiling like a retard to myself, getting high at nothing at all.
:D
AH. i love you all. love love love love. my friends, family, whoever! however much i've screwed myself academically this year, i dont care. <3
flew @9:25 PM April 4, 2007
HOHOHO
some people are just SO FUNNY. xD
heyhey where's my risk for today! hahaha why am i being so stupid anyway. HAHA.
boo i have to mug for math :(
i dont wanttttttt.
flew @8:45 PM April 3, 2007
EE i cant stand you.
hey VEE.
i hope you know that you stink like PEE.
you're so disgusting and irresponsible and horrible! you dont deserve what you have, slackerass! even i'm better off than you are.
-sticks tongue out and makes a disgusted face at VEE, but apparently cant make it cos VEE is so horrible looking it's vomit-inducing.i dont want to go home with you. obvious enough?
flew @10:23 PM April 2, 2007
GAH.
GAH. life is so boring.
do ss pt. do math revisions. do chinese paper2. do chinese wkst. do ting xie revision.
so many things to do.
if only we could study without having to excel in it, if only we could study without having tests and performance tasks and stupid things like that, if only we could go to school like it was a playground and still have our future secured, if only we could do things we wanted, if only we could enjoy life, if only we could be happy, if only.
if only life didnt have rules. if only life was all good.
-snaps back into reality.
i seem to have drifted away from them. i dont want to.
and i want to watch campus superstar, boo.
i need to spice up my life. it's getting boring, sixteen years of being alive. :/
so many things left undone, unaccomplished. how saddening.
flew @10:00 PM
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