friday the 13th
today is friday the 13th. no i'm not paranoid, but instead, today, i feel sad. i dunno why, but, i just feel sad about all the things that are going on in my life. and as i grow up, i miss the times i had, and i wish i had cherished them better.
i really really miss
her. so emo, but yes. now when there are plans for going on holidays, i have a second thought about them. it's so hard to enjoy things when she's not around; well, simply because they're not who i am, and they can never replace her. even if you give me the best place to go to, i might not go. because she's not around anymore:( just be here to always guide me along, ok? i love you!
i miss twofour too. yes again. studied with sunchao last saturday, and i felt this really happy sensation coming out from me again. something i hadnt really felt since this semester. and then there's RS sessions. as much as i dont really like the session, i love the people. hello, shusi, minjia, they're the best ever please. so going for RS isnt really a chore, since i get to spend time with them:)
and i miss my yearmates too. the room is always so empty these few days. sadly, i admit, partly the reason i go to the rc room everytime i can is to seek some company. at least, then i will feel more loved. but now it's the eoy period and noone goes to the room that much anymore. so i stop too, lest i just feel even more lonely.
to the people i love, and those who love me too, thank you for being with me through so much. (:
oh, and have i ever mentioned that i love suann too? :D out of my three pri schl besties, i must say she's the best. hello, in the midst of her eoy period she just smsed me a random msg about not talking to me for such a long time alr. even though we might be changed people, and she's alr taller than me T.T, there's just this comfort and ease i feel when i talk to her. and it's a really nice feeling.
well, to you: i dont know why you have that hatred towards me, and neither do i know when you'll stop it. even if you dont want to be my friend anymore, we're still classmates you know. not talking to each other can kill. especially since we're gonna stay classmates for another year. i think i've mentioned this before, but i'll say it again. i dont hate you, but i hate the things you do to spite me.POST EOY SCHEDULE(haha i cant believe i'm posting this when i havent even started revising bio and physics, the ultimate killers. and not mentioning chem, which i have failed to memorise after mugging for what, four days?)1. YEAR OUTING
2. MORE YEAR OUTINGS
3. shopping!
4. watch a movie. oh please, anything.
5. drool over dongbang (HA i nvr realised what a fangirl i was >< )
6. read the Bible (YUP! i shall do it everyday without fail(: )
7. TALENTIME! :D it's gonna be funfunfun hanging around with my darl yearmates.
i envy those who have such a strong faith in Him, because i just dont. as hard as i try, i just cant. i need His love soso much.
flew @6:51 PM
October 13, 2006
