so stressed
there's school,
there's home,
and there's my friends as well.
and everything is just stressing me up.
school open house is screwed. i'm sorry ma'ams, i'm sorry juniors, most imptly, i'm sorry yearmates. it's such a rush, such a screwup, i dont even know much about what's going on.
then there's the academic part. fluctuating results. sometimes acceptable, sometimes bad. or rather, mostly bad. i mean, failed physics, failed chinese, failed maths. eww? i dunno what people are going to say about me, but yea. i think i'm one darnded failure. like seriously. ):
home stress too. nowadays i go into a home where there's shouting from my dad, and no work done by my bro. and i'm not exactly a people person. i seriously think i might have had zi4 bi4 zheng4 when i was a kid. i cant talk. i can sit there being quiet observing my surroundings and i wont be bored at all. home is the last place you wanna be stressed at man. i mean, everyone has their own problems. my dad has his, my bro has his, and so do i. and they just pile everything onto me. every single thing. i'm involved in their problems, somehow. somehow or rather, everything can be linked back to me. so, i'm involved. wow. whee. so fun. and then when the "guilty" one isnt around, i'm to play the punching bag. thanks alot, really.
friends there's this thing. that teenagers need. that's friends. so far, i havent had any real friend that i can trust in. i dont care who's reading my blog right now. i just dont feel that the person is trustworthy enough for me to pour my troubles to. i mean, i can take in troubles from others cos i'm a listener more than a talker, but when you ask me to talk. really, i might just stone. grawr.
my life is screwed. officially.
flew @10:16 PM
July 14, 2006
